Anyone would be afraid, I think. But I do understand. I...

[He sighs. Even here and now, this is difficult for him to talk about.]

When I gained the ability to use the network like that, I don't think I... knew yet, that there was something wrong with me. Not exactly, not... fully. But I was still terrified. I felt so exposed, and... and it felt like anything I did to try and regain control over what I was putting out there just made it worse.