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[Oh...That sure is a question...]
you'll be more careful about what you do for the fourth god right?
[That's the problem Marco.]
um...
i don't know if we can be friends...
i mean...i like you, you're a good adult, but you're an adult.
and...i'm not a good friend.
i'm an awful friend, really.
i don't know how to be a friend, or how to have friends, or anything like that.
and i'm really ugly...ugly people aren't good friends.
you're supposed to make fun of and bully ugly people!
so you wouldn't want to be my friend anyway...
you'll be more careful about what you do for the fourth god right?
[That's the problem Marco.]
um...
i don't know if we can be friends...
i mean...i like you, you're a good adult, but you're an adult.
and...i'm not a good friend.
i'm an awful friend, really.
i don't know how to be a friend, or how to have friends, or anything like that.
and i'm really ugly...ugly people aren't good friends.
you're supposed to make fun of and bully ugly people!
so you wouldn't want to be my friend anyway...
I will be
I'll do my best, I promise.
[As for the rest... It comes as less of a surprise than if Jataro just said yes, really. But God, it breaks Marco's heart to see the kid talk about himself like that.]
What if
I think of you as my friend?
You don't have to think of ME as a friend, I understand why you can't
But you sound like a good friend.
Would it be okay if it isn't mutual?
[He's not going to argue the "ugly" bit. As much as he doubts that's true, he's quite sure it wouldn't be productive to go into it right now, with the way Jataro clings to that belief.]
I'll do my best, I promise.
[As for the rest... It comes as less of a surprise than if Jataro just said yes, really. But God, it breaks Marco's heart to see the kid talk about himself like that.]
What if
I think of you as my friend?
You don't have to think of ME as a friend, I understand why you can't
But you sound like a good friend.
Would it be okay if it isn't mutual?
[He's not going to argue the "ugly" bit. As much as he doubts that's true, he's quite sure it wouldn't be productive to go into it right now, with the way Jataro clings to that belief.]
[How is this an even harder question than the last? Again there's a pause, Jataro trying to sort out how he feels about that, and what to say. Is that okay?? Why is he hesitating on answering, it should be obvious. He wants everyone to hate him, doesn't he?]
i
guess you can
if you really want
i don't know why you'd want to.
i don't know how i sound like a good friend because i promise i'm not.
i'm really bad.
but i guess you'll see that for yourself if you think of me as a friend when i disapoint you.
hating me would be better though, you know.
if you hate me, then you don't have to worry about thinking of me as a friend, and seeing how wrong you were, and beating yourself up for not hating me in the first place!
because i'll mess something up eventually and make you mad or sad, and then you'll really hate me.
but i guess this is better too, because if i mess up being a good friend, you'd really REALLY hate me, huh?
you'd hate me so much, you'd want me dead, huh?
so i guess that's okay...
i
guess you can
if you really want
i don't know why you'd want to.
i don't know how i sound like a good friend because i promise i'm not.
i'm really bad.
but i guess you'll see that for yourself if you think of me as a friend when i disapoint you.
hating me would be better though, you know.
if you hate me, then you don't have to worry about thinking of me as a friend, and seeing how wrong you were, and beating yourself up for not hating me in the first place!
because i'll mess something up eventually and make you mad or sad, and then you'll really hate me.
but i guess this is better too, because if i mess up being a good friend, you'd really REALLY hate me, huh?
you'd hate me so much, you'd want me dead, huh?
so i guess that's okay...
[ A what now? ]
Wait a second-- [ Confused and disturbed by Marco's response to what he is seeing, Rohan turns the book around. This breaks the illusion and he's staring at his baby flamingo on the page. Unless Marco and Fiddleford's genes will look anything like THAT when put together, this is BOTHERSOME. ]
... You're not telling me you just saw your freakish squid-snake child.
You DIDN'T...
Oh... NO...
Wait a second-- [ Confused and disturbed by Marco's response to what he is seeing, Rohan turns the book around. This breaks the illusion and he's staring at his baby flamingo on the page. Unless Marco and Fiddleford's genes will look anything like THAT when put together, this is BOTHERSOME. ]
... You're not telling me you just saw your freakish squid-snake child.
You DIDN'T...
Oh... NO...
Jataro
Isn't Nagisa your friend?
I know this is hard for you to talk about.
But...
[It takes him a while to stumble upon something to say. Even then, he isn't sure if it's the RIGHT thing to say.]
I mean look at me.
I've made a terrible mistake, probably several,
and not everybody hates me.
Which is hard for me to wrap my head around, honestly. I've been having a lot of terrible thoughts
Well never mind those thoughts.
What matters is I've been trying to remember it.
The fact that people are still offering to help me.
You haven't done anything like I have, so
So.
Would you at least give yourself a chance?
Isn't Nagisa your friend?
I know this is hard for you to talk about.
But...
[It takes him a while to stumble upon something to say. Even then, he isn't sure if it's the RIGHT thing to say.]
I mean look at me.
I've made a terrible mistake, probably several,
and not everybody hates me.
Which is hard for me to wrap my head around, honestly. I've been having a lot of terrible thoughts
Well never mind those thoughts.
What matters is I've been trying to remember it.
The fact that people are still offering to help me.
You haven't done anything like I have, so
So.
Would you at least give yourself a chance?
What?
[Marco is just as confused until he looks at the book again, then turns his head to make sure he isn't just seeing things wrong.] What the-- What's that? What did you d-d--
[Sure, that's a thing he could ask. "What did you draw, because that's not the strangely endearing multi-tailed snake I was just looking at." But in the heat of the moment, a more pressing question comes to mind - abruptly, he stands up, pointing an accusing finger at Rohan.]
What did you do to me?!
[Marco is just as confused until he looks at the book again, then turns his head to make sure he isn't just seeing things wrong.] What the-- What's that? What did you d-d--
[Sure, that's a thing he could ask. "What did you draw, because that's not the strangely endearing multi-tailed snake I was just looking at." But in the heat of the moment, a more pressing question comes to mind - abruptly, he stands up, pointing an accusing finger at Rohan.]
What did you do to me?!
[Marco looks terrible. When he walks into the place, the apartment looks a little out of the ordinary. These are things he notices pretty easily, considering they lived together for so long, and he's raising his eyebrows as soon as he gets in. Suddenly his pre-wedding jitters seem a lot less concerning.]
Woah. Are you okay? What happened? Is Fiddleford around?
Woah. Are you okay? What happened? Is Fiddleford around?
you're different though!
you made mistakes and did wrong things, but you're nice and kind, and you aren't
you aren't horrible. or awful. or weird or a freak or ugly, or anything like that.
you aren't worthless, like me.
people like me should just die.
i should just die, you know?
i don't want to, because i promised i'd protect shingetsu-kun, but it'd be better if i did.
but that's why everyone hates me, and why everyone should hate me.
i don't know why shingetsu-kun wants to be my friend.
i don't understand it at all.
i don't know why he likes me, or treats me differently than even how the other warriors treat me.
he doesn't prank me or ignore me or call me names or say mean things to me or anything so...
but i want to make him happy, so we're friends.
[And he won't admit it, but he really does want friends. Truthfully, that's why he accepted it.]
but
even if we're friends, i know one day i'll mess up.
that's all a person like me does.
i'm going to say or do something, and then he'll hate me and he'll never want to be my friend again.
and it's the same for everyone else.
when you have friends you always have to worry about saying and doing the right things.
about looking and acting a certain way.
i don't want to care about those things.
it makes my head hurt and my tummy upset, thinking about it, because i'm not any good at it.
i'm not like everyone else.
so it's just better if everyone hates me right away!
then no one has to feel bad about thinking i could be a good friend.
you made mistakes and did wrong things, but you're nice and kind, and you aren't
you aren't horrible. or awful. or weird or a freak or ugly, or anything like that.
you aren't worthless, like me.
people like me should just die.
i should just die, you know?
i don't want to, because i promised i'd protect shingetsu-kun, but it'd be better if i did.
but that's why everyone hates me, and why everyone should hate me.
i don't know why shingetsu-kun wants to be my friend.
i don't understand it at all.
i don't know why he likes me, or treats me differently than even how the other warriors treat me.
he doesn't prank me or ignore me or call me names or say mean things to me or anything so...
but i want to make him happy, so we're friends.
[And he won't admit it, but he really does want friends. Truthfully, that's why he accepted it.]
but
even if we're friends, i know one day i'll mess up.
that's all a person like me does.
i'm going to say or do something, and then he'll hate me and he'll never want to be my friend again.
and it's the same for everyone else.
when you have friends you always have to worry about saying and doing the right things.
about looking and acting a certain way.
i don't want to care about those things.
it makes my head hurt and my tummy upset, thinking about it, because i'm not any good at it.
i'm not like everyone else.
so it's just better if everyone hates me right away!
then no one has to feel bad about thinking i could be a good friend.
[Fiddleford would be lying if he said he hadn't thought about the very same thing. Moving in with Marco, in his mind, was as good as a declaration of intent to marry the man eventually. They just... well, they just need to find the right time, and it's so hard to find the right time for anything in Ryslig.]
Me too. Honestly just havin' you here with me still is enough of a present. You don't have to worry about one.
Me too. Honestly just havin' you here with me still is enough of a present. You don't have to worry about one.
Jataro, I don't want you dead.
Neither does Nagisa.
Whoever DOES want that is a monster
well you know what I mean
Nagisa is your friend, and he thinks of you as his friend too, I'm sure of it.
WE don't have to be friends if you're not comfortable with that
I just want you to know I want to help you too.
Is that okay?
Neither does Nagisa.
Whoever DOES want that is a monster
well you know what I mean
Nagisa is your friend, and he thinks of you as his friend too, I'm sure of it.
WE don't have to be friends if you're not comfortable with that
I just want you to know I want to help you too.
Is that okay?
I might just find one, anyway.
[Wouldn't that be grand? The Ryslig Peninsula, saved. Everyone, freed.Himself, redeemed. He couldn't say he did it for Fiddleford, sure, but he could say he couldn't have done it without him, because it's true.
Happiness and freedom are so close. So close.
He gives Fiddleford an affectionate kiss on the cheek.]
Thanks, honey.
[Wouldn't that be grand? The Ryslig Peninsula, saved. Everyone, freed.
Happiness and freedom are so close. So close.
He gives Fiddleford an affectionate kiss on the cheek.]
Thanks, honey.
you should
you both should
[Why wouldn't you want him dead? Why wouldn't anyone want him dead? Despite saying this though...]
yeah, that's okay.
you both should
[Why wouldn't you want him dead? Why wouldn't anyone want him dead? Despite saying this though...]
yeah, that's okay.
I was HELPING!
[ HE WILL NEVER KNOW PEACE NOW. ]
Er-- Helping you with the-- Errors you've made! [ WHO HAS MADE MORE MISTAKES HERE. He pulls his lips back and hisses at the finger. ]
Get that out of my face.
[ please get it out of his face he's Nervous, Angel Boy. ]
[ HE WILL NEVER KNOW PEACE NOW. ]
Er-- Helping you with the-- Errors you've made! [ WHO HAS MADE MORE MISTAKES HERE. He pulls his lips back and hisses at the finger. ]
Get that out of my face.
[ please get it out of his face he's Nervous, Angel Boy. ]
[ Rohan is still pinned to his spot. Marco could EASILY mess him up in a heartbeat and he isn't at all confident in himself. Neither of them are their normal monsters but if there is anyone who might have the upper hand, it's Marco.
And fuck that noise. ]
I only had part of a hand in it. Yeah, it was me. But if you haven't noticed, it wasn't to do you any harm.
And fuck that noise. ]
I only had part of a hand in it. Yeah, it was me. But if you haven't noticed, it wasn't to do you any harm.
[ Sigh. ]
Because you've been acting like a psycho for the past six months and now you're losing the things that supposedly matter to you. If you love McGucket as much as you say you do, you'll see what a complete cock you've been.
He's your family, isn't he? Then stop screwing it up.
Because you've been acting like a psycho for the past six months and now you're losing the things that supposedly matter to you. If you love McGucket as much as you say you do, you'll see what a complete cock you've been.
He's your family, isn't he? Then stop screwing it up.
Then I've done all I can.
[ He crosses his arms and dismissively shrugs his shoulders. ]
I lost Jotaro and I might never get him back. Distance yourself from McGucket and see if he ever wants to come back. At least you can maybe have that.
[ He crosses his arms and dismissively shrugs his shoulders. ]
I lost Jotaro and I might never get him back. Distance yourself from McGucket and see if he ever wants to come back. At least you can maybe have that.
I guess all you can do is deal with it. Unfortunate.
Your religious stances aside, you two were the perfect nerd couple. It was almost cute. [ can't go complimenting him or anything. ]
Almost. You may have to cut your losses. You might not. [ Rohan brings a claw to his lips and picks at his teeth. ] Moving on is the worst part.
Oh gross, it sounds like we're having a heart to heart.
Your religious stances aside, you two were the perfect nerd couple. It was almost cute. [ can't go complimenting him or anything. ]
Almost. You may have to cut your losses. You might not. [ Rohan brings a claw to his lips and picks at his teeth. ] Moving on is the worst part.
Oh gross, it sounds like we're having a heart to heart.
Ha. It sure does. It sure... sure does.
[He smiles a weak, lopsided smile. Part of him still can't quite believe this is all Rohan invited him to do, still suspects a trap or a stab in the back.
But for now, he's still safe. He's here, and he doesn't feel safe, but nothing bad is happening.]
... Do you want to talk about Jotaro?
[He smiles a weak, lopsided smile. Part of him still can't quite believe this is all Rohan invited him to do, still suspects a trap or a stab in the back.
But for now, he's still safe. He's here, and he doesn't feel safe, but nothing bad is happening.]
... Do you want to talk about Jotaro?
[ Rohan might be way more of a manipulative dick in this body but he's less inclined to murder people straight up.
Theeeeennnn there's that. ]
What's there to talk about?
Theeeeennnn there's that. ]
What's there to talk about?
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