It wasn't. I remember I told Percy. I talked to him all the way back before I lost my legs. He wanted to know about people we missed and I told him and I went back to find it, to check, and I was wrong then too.
I was so careful to leave everything important intact and I lost years of my son's life. I knew it was dangerous but I didn't think the damage was already so extensive.
[This isn't like after he died. His panic then was a violent, anxious storm. This is a cold, calm horror. He can type just fine. He can barely speak. Possibly those two things will reverse once it really sinks in exactly how badly he fucked up. The night's still young.]
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I was so careful to leave everything important intact and I lost years of my son's life. I knew it was dangerous but I didn't think the damage was already so extensive.
[This isn't like after he died. His panic then was a violent, anxious storm. This is a cold, calm horror. He can type just fine. He can barely speak. Possibly those two things will reverse once it really sinks in exactly how badly he fucked up. The night's still young.]